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Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 12:06 AM
it has been a fucking super totally odd and weird and super fastyet slow week...
i heard of the news of my grandmother..
i am so so like sad and well fucking emo
and really down..
i mean now all we can do is to go and visit her
as often and as much as possible
and well pray for her..
and make sure she will be able to live longer..
till as long as she could
she wants
i dont wanan lose her
i mean i have already lost both of my grandfathers
and i dont wanan lose my grandmother too...
its true when one is old
all the fucking illiness
sickness
and diseases start to appear
and come about
but well i just hope she will be fine
stay strong granny...
i will pray
pray hard for you ... man...
well its the weekend again..
feeling good
its like mon.. tues
the fucking blues
wed mid week slightly happy
thur happy..
fri and sat super happy
sunday
kind of sad yet also happy
and its back to mon..
haha...
o... the financial controller
vanessa gave me a christmas gift
o man..
how i have to think of what to get
for the 15 ladies
in the same dept as me
finance and accounts dept
fuck
and the worse thing is i am so so fucking broke
gosh
think i have to work two jobs
or well borrow from my sister and parents first
but if i do borrow
i am like so not nice
and means i been working
and not saving up for my future studies
and life..
sigh
no matter how much i work
it seems like i still have lack of funds..
wth man
haha
the rain has stopped
shall shave
and jog soon...
thanks to the log cakes
in the company
and fiona;s mos burgers and fries
haha
and well all i can think of now is friends male ones
and a GF
but mostly importantly
work
work
work
study
study
study
and $$
$$
$$
$$
no $$$$$$
no life
no will
and no more goals
well $$$$
work
GF
studies
friends
family
all i ask for now man...
all i ask for christmas is happiness
for all my love ones
and hopefully
a GF soon...
ciao